
I have just returned from my five-day trek and climb in the Cordillera Blanca, the Peruvian Andes mountain range. This will probably be my last or second last blog as my current journey in South America is coming to its end. Today I intend to share more of my spiritual journey on the trek, because, to share anything other than that would be a distortion of the experience. And for those of you who have so happened to have clicked into this particular blog, I hope it will shed light to some aspect of your life from an angle perhaps slightly not so familiar because maybe you´re not familiar with the sport of mountain climbing, or maybe you are, I do not know. Being in Huaraz is a really interesting time for me because I´m constantly picking up enlightening pieces about climbing in Everest and the Andes and little did I know in the past the depth this extreme sport holds and the distance, both physically and spiritually, many have travelled to come to such high points of the world. To say that climbing one of the easiest peaks in the Andes, plus with the full-on help with an experienced guide brought me much enlightenment may sound like an overstatement to those who have conquered much more, but I will not compare myself with others for don´t we all have our own experiences and journeys?
The trek began with an easy 4-hour walking in a wide beautiful valley. I was accompanied by my guide Marco, and his brother Roger the porter, two young and lighthearted Peruvians who literally made me feel like my backpack was lighter and lighter in their presence on the first day. Marco and Roger successfully captured a skinny lil donkey to help us carry our load on the first day. Donkey didn´t look happy and pooed many times throughout the trek. Naughty lil´ donkey tried many times to escape, but only in vain. The maximum load you can put on a donkey is 70kgs and this lil´ skinny donkey was maxed out.
Second day was much tougher, we trekked about 8 hours with backpacks because the terrain didn´t allow donkeys to trek on, crossed a highpass of high 4,000Ms and descended for about 2 hours to a lower point in the Quebrada Quilcahuanca to arrive at our second night´s campsite. In the 7th hour during the descent, my backpack felt like a tremendous burden and I suddenly felt extremely emotional as my shoulders started to scream in pain after shouldering weight for many hours. At the brink of an intense emotional outbreak, I asked spirit why my shoulders have to hurt. Yes I know this issue has been rubbed and skinned many times throughout my life but yet at that moment, I needed yet another level of understanding from God. My angels said to me, "you have created this pain so that one day, you can know God again, for separation is but the nearest road to remembering who we truly are." Sitting with this insight, I fought hard to hold back my tears as Marco was only about ten steps ahead of me and I continued on the trek while refusing to let Marco take my bag (which he has offered many times as he was sensing my fatigue..). My refusal to let go my backpack was like my refusal to let go my psychological load off my shoulders, perhaps it is guilt, perhaps it is a sense of unworthiness which plagues all of humanity, or perhaps I´ve chosen to hold on to such pain, only so that one day, I can become liberated and remember Light, the eternal Source flame which connects all of reality in a beautiful network of eternal Oneness. But not for long, my tears streamed down like a fountain broke loose, and I felt much lighter afterwards and I finally conceded to let Marco take my bag for the last mile. In no time we arrived at our second night´s campsite and had a nice fulfilling meal before resting for the night.
On the third day, Marco and I packed up for our ascent to Ishinca, a 5,534M glacier peak in the Cordillera Blanca, a beginner peak which required little technical climbing. We left campsite with our equipment and one night´s amenities at around noon and arrived at Ishinca´s Campamiento Moreno (sorta like secondary base camp, which is close to a glacier) at 5,000M in about 4 hours. A lot of very steep uphill which got me quite tired as well, however there was one fun stretch of rock trekking which allowed me to connect with rock spirits that really lightened me up. I´ve always had an apprehension towards rocks, and ironically, every trek I´ve picked so far (including my riverrafting trip believe it or not!) had a lot of rock trekking. The reason I abhored hopping on rocks was because I often slip and hurt myself on them. However my encounter with rock spirits on my way to Camp Moreno quite dramatically altered my sentiments towards them. While I was pulling myself up that last stretch to Camp Moreno that was full of huge sharp rocks, rock spirits suddenly appeared and spoke to me. They introduced themselves very kindly and welcomed me to their territory. First they told me that they´re not here to conquer me, nor allow me to conquer them, in fact, they are here to assist me on my path. They sounded so nice and understanding I suddenly became very happy to be trekking on them. At that point I was feeling again very tired and my shoulders were starting to hurt again. They repeated several times that I must not let my mind trick me and that they´ll assist me in reaching a higher level of consciousness and infuse me with God energy, allowing me to make it to whereever I want to be. Then like a miracle, I felt incredibly energized and started to literally hop on the rocks without fear of falling and in no time, I reached Camp Moreno. At one time I was having so much fun on the rocks that I trekked to the other side of the path and Marco had to come fetch me to guide me back to the right path. Spending the night at Camp Moreno was fun but also a tough experience. I was struck down by altitude sickness for two hours after eating my dinner too rapidly, but luckily I managed to get a few hours of moderate-quality sleep before waking up at 230am feeling quite well-rested to start our ascent to Ishinca.
The word Ishinca is Quechuan, and according to my guide, means "the root". We trekked for almost 3 hours on snowy rocks with glacier trekking shoes which took me about 45 minutes to get used to. (Weather was horrible and was snowing pretty much 80% of my time of my entire 5-day trip.) At about sunrise we arrived at the entry point to the glacier part. Took a few snapshots with my timer because low lighting required long exposure times. Then Marco dressed me in my harness and clamp-ons and we entered the glacier as sunlight seeped through the Andes. Walking with clamp-ons was much tougher than I anticipated, sorta felt like walking in snow with ski boots except it´s all uphill. I was tired within the first 30 minutes. Snow was really thick and Marco was roped to me about 15 steps ahead, making treks for me to follow. In the last 60-minute stretch I felt an infusion of Light through my being and I felt incredibly connected with the Source. I connected with the spirit of Ishinca who told me that she is the Goddess of Compassion, indeed she has a incredible sense of feminine feeling to her, with a very soft-looking summit, that stood in sharp juxtaposition with her neighbouring jugged peak that loomed about another 700M above her (forgot the name of this mountain). I felt a tremendous awe for and a sense of oneness with the surrounding beauty and was feeling like a really clear channel. The surge of energy from such a feeling of connection with Source gave me the inner fuel to keep going, so for about 30 to 45 minutes (I´m not sure) I felt like being on automatic pilot without consciously exerting much physical effort. Then came the last 30 minutes and at that time, my body was in full exhaustion and my mind was starting to take over with thoughts like, maybe I should stop and just forget about the summit. Thanks to Marco who insisted that I keep going, we got to the summit at about 930am. The summit is a small lil´ plateau that barely has enough space for both of us. We took a few silly pictures, rested, and very quickly we had to start our descent because the sun was getting strong and it would be very difficult to walk on melting snow. I had a really tough time with the descent, at one point I thought, it wouldn´t be a big deal to just lie down and die because I was so exhausted. Perhaps death itself isn´t so scary afterall, for death is but a part of being in this paradigm of reality. And yet as much as dying is scary for many, death feels so easy at times, while choosing to keep going can be so much harder...
Went back to Camp Moreno, had lunch, packed up, then another 3 hours down to our second night´s campsite where Roger was stationed so a total of 12 hours of trekking my body was not functioning properly after that. Asked Marco if he was tired at all and he swiftly answered with a blunt no. Enjoyed our last camp dinner meal, had yummy spaghetti, then snugged into my sleeping bag for the last time. As much as my sleeping bag is a full-on mummy bag suitable for high alpine conditions as well as my tent being a tough North Face mountain tent, comfort was the last thing I felt. The snow at night caused my tent to almost collapse on me from two sides, but the cold air deterred me from wanting to get up to fix it, so I continued to hide inside my mummy bag until the sun came out the next morning. Marco cooked yummy breakfast, butter-grilled bread and fried chicken sausages. Then we set off for our exit, which was a relatively short 3-hour flat trek out of the valley.
It´s only been a day since my return and the trek already seems like a blur in my memory. In retrospect there were really only 2 to maybe at max 3 hours of time that I felt was really difficult to endure, so as a part of the whole, 2 to 3 hours of pain relative to getting slightly closer to God, closer to reacquainting with the Truth again, perhaps, it is all worth it. Sometimes I do not understand why I´ve chosen to do certain things, yet I know I´m simply listening to my heart for cues to tred further on this long-winded and very often exhilirating road called life. To me, mountain climbing continues to feel like an impossible endeavour. Yet at the same time, I am cultivating a stronger belief in miracles, in making quantum leaps in life such as how Jesus was able to effect instant healings on others. Right now I do not have any intentions to climb another mountain, yet I trust that, when the the time comes, I´ll be cued again, and God always knows my limits, and, with much compassion and love, He who knows me well never fails to take me closer to Him, never fails to allow me to experience greater joy, to live more in the moment, and to feel a a stronger trust in Him and myself. Always.
Tomorrow I leave Huaraz for Ica, my last destination in Peru.
(Photograph: Vista from the summit of Ishinca, Cordillera Blanca, Andes in Peru)


